…anymore.

To read this might be hard to believe as I know a lot of you reading this probably dream of leaving their home country and go travelling longterm or even fulltime.

But hear me out:

I’ve been there. Some years ago all I wanted was to leave Germany and travel the world, so I totally get it. And I still love travelling, it’s a beautiful thing to do.

It broadens your horizon, sparks creativity, makes you understand different people and cultures better, might teach you how lucky and privileged you actually are and of course you get to see some of the most beautiful places and go on some of the most amazing adventures.

However, now that I’ve seen quite a bit of the world, I feel that travelling is not my main goal anymore, it’s not what I live for.

Back in Germany I got up in the morning to go to a job I hated just to save up money to make my dream of travelling for a very long period of time come true, that’s how important it was to me.

Today in 2020 I’ve done my fair bit of travelling, seen most countries in Europe and got to spent even months in other countries. 5 months in Sweden back in 2014 when I was studying, 3 months in Bali in 2018, now I’ve been in Australia for 1,5 years already,..

Here in Australia I actually now have more of a real home as I live with my Australian partner and don’t travel around too much which had of course been my plan before coming here. But hey, I’m happy I’m not travelling around in Australia the whole time for 2 years.

Because I hadn’t seen too much of the country yet I decided to go on a 3 week roadtrip which I just came back from a few days ago.  It’s been a beautiful trip and I enjoyed it, don’t get me wrong, but I’m also happy I’m back home.

I feel this trip has been a very important one for me to make because it made me realize that while I still enjoy travelling, what I really want is a HOME. So often on this trip I was thinking „how nice it would be to be at home now“.

It might sound boring and maybe it’s because I’m already 31 years old but my focus in life has shifted. Today what I really crave is creating a beautiful home, knowing where everything is, having my own kitchen, having my loved ones and people I know around me and so on.

This doesn’t mean I won’t travel anymore at all, you can always go for a trip and I know I need this from time to time, but it’s not my main goal in life anymore to spend most of my time travelling and seeing all the different countries out there. Tbh, the thought of being a fulltime traveller absolutely freaks me out. In the past looking at other people travelling from country to country all year round always got me a bit envious as I wanted this for myself whereas today I’m like  „I don’t know how these people do it.. way too stressful“, haha.

Now some of you might wonder why I’m always talking about how I started my online business to have the freedom to travel and be able to work from anywhere in the world. The reason is that that’s the truth. No matter what I plan on doing with my life – travelling, building a family, starting a new hobby – I just want to have the time, freedom and financial ressources to do so. For me this is just not possible with a 9-5 job and working for someone else.

I need to know I can always go on a trip if I feel like it. If I end up staying in Australia,  I always need to have the freedom to visit Germany for a longer period of time, especially over Christmas to see my parents. If I start a family I want to spend time at home and not be at work all day. I basically don’t want to forever depend on other people to give me a job, to tell me when to work, how much I’m able to earn and when to be able to take some time off.